i should be sleeping

This is one of those posts where people will likely learn more than they ever needed to know about me but it's all part of my reality and what I live with.

I've been away for a few days. I had to go see a specialist in another city. Nosey Parker at work had asked me what I was doing on my vacation days. I told her matter-of-factly that I was going to a doctor's appointment about 4 hours away so it wasn't really a vacation day. That shut her up. I didn't tell her I was seeing a gynecological dermatoligist. Although I admit I would have loved to see the color of embarassment creep up her face since I'm not as easliy embarassed about that stuff. But since it's regarding my crotch itch, I kept it to myself. Besides, Nosey as she is, She'd likely ask for details..."runaway! RUNAWAY!"

So since you, "the internet" haven't asked for details I'm gonna share them with you anyway. Besides having to cope with being overweight and having a terrible relationship with food, and being in debt up to my eye balls I also have an itchy crotch. Now, that doesn't sound all that bad. But seriously people, I have the itchiest of all itchy crotches!I have the kind or itch that wakes up in the dead of night to scratch until you managed to slough off the top layber of skin. And this would be a whole lot less embarassing if it was someplace other than my crotch. To be more precise, it's the labia that itch. Before Monk was concieved I had a biopsy (and yes a crotch biopsy is about as much fun as it sounds) The results of the biopsy were quite unclear because I had scratched to the point there was nothing but mostly scar tissue showing up in the sample. The Pathologist thought he might have seen some HPV in there. So I did one month of immune modifier treatment then I found out I was pregnant. I finished the full round of the immune modifier two months ago. And guess what? I'm still itchy! And so it was back to the specialist. It would appear that I no longer have the HPV issue(if it was ever THE issue), but I still have the itch. The specialist consulted with another specialist (yes I appreciated them standing in the hallway of the hospital discussing my crotch, NOT) and the new plan of attact is mega doses of steroid with a medication to reduce the itch at night and put me to sleep to try and break the cycle. We'll see how this goes. I can't keep traveling to another province a few times a year to get my itchy crotch looked at.

While I was away I went to see my Mother. I brought Monk along and he was positively miserable at night. He had me up every hour in the night.I was exhausted from the long drive and then up all night and then exhausted driving home but last night I could not get to sleep nor could I seem to stay asleep. I need an actual day off to have an afternoon nap. You know how sometimes naps just make everything right?

I haven't been watching my eating. Mostly because I'm taking a little break. I skipped the gym last night because I was too tired to go but in the end probably should have gone anyway. Oh well, I'll be back there on Friday.

I'm off to fix myself some breakfast. Then gotta get dressed and go to work. UGH.